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Thailand in December - The End


The End 12/27/04
 
3:45am Korea Time

10:45am California Time



   Only a few hours left now. I see California on the map with the little airplane approaching... and I don't want to return. I feel a sinking feeling, for the first time. Because that place is SO familiar, and yet it is not. It is all unfamiliair because of time. Now I do know where I am or how I fit there or what I'm supposed to be doing there.

  Elsewhere is new and I am an explorer and a traveller and it all is unfamiliar as it seems. Yet California, especially the Bay Area is supposed to be familiar... and yet, it is not. My life there is not. Well, I said the next few months would be very hard, didn't I? I must, keep, going. I just don't like this feeling of dread I get when I think of returning. It is a returning to so many questions and so much lostness and complicatedness of too many conflicting people and desires and suggestions... too too many factors. Too much history, too many layers. My existence here in California just feels so complicated.

   Well, I should focus on the things that will be exciting - hot showers, BREAD!! Seeing my friends and family, seeing the ocean, holding my guitar. Music. Right, I can go back to music. Home to music.

 
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